There is a lot of activity in the ASD blogging community lately about taking care of yourself. Lots of these moms are putting down their parenting books, their Asperger’s books, their Sensory Processing Disorder books, and they are going running, buying novels and generally doing more relaxing.
And I look at all my books, the same books these ladies have been up late at night reading. Mine have been gathering dust on the bookshelf for two months now.
I tried reading them. I really did. And then I starting having daily panic attacks. So I put them away.
Now I don’t know any more than I did about Asperger’s. And I wonder if I’m doing Jett a disservice? Isn’t my job as a parent to learn all I can about his disability so I can be the best advocate for him? Instead I have put my head in the sand in order to take care of myself.
I KNOW that self care is super important. But child care is just as important. In our daily teeter-totter life I worry I’ve been anchoring myself to the ground and leaving Jett dangling in the air. It’s time to rise up slowly to meet him. So we can balance together.